Below are some good podcasts to listen to. They contain interviews exploring journeys that other traders have taken to get to where they are. You would hear how others have blown their trading accounts but come back after periods of reflection to set their trading plans up and more importantly follow their trading plans.
Oftentimes, traders have a good idea of what their criteria for entering trades are but they, for a variety of reasons, fail to stay on course. Some of the reasons include a strong desire to make huge profits quickly, panicking at trade entry and exit points, chasing after trades, using too much leverage, setting stop losses too tight or not setting stop losses at all. Enjoy listening!
CFDs are complex instruments and come with a high risk of losing money rapidly due to leverage.
You should consider whether you understand how CFDs work and whether you can afford to take the high risk of losing your money.